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Tonight marks three years since the death of a friend. Tonight is also the beginning of Yom Kippur this year.

I'm currently exploring my Jewish heritage once again, and although I was never observant even before my conversion to Christianity, I was tempted to consider at least a partial fast this year. It would bother my husband though, so I won't do it. I suppose it would be hypocritical anyway for me to do even a partial fast, since I am already committed to working tomorrow. It would be more of a symbolic gesture of recognition of the reality that I have done wrong, in many ways, but that redemption is still possible. As long as we're alive, it is not too late. Although I'm easily distracted and too easily discouraged, I still don't like to give up on anyone, not even myself.
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On an impulse, Ken and Jess and I went up to Niagara Falls for the first half of the Memorial Day weekend. My scheduled trials in Family Court were cancelled, and I hadn't been up to Welland to visit Krystle's grave yet, and the documentation requirements at the border are going to be tightened on June 1, 2009 which will make it much more difficult to cross back and forth between the U.S. and Canada, so this just seemed like the right time to go.

Niagara Falls is a fun place to visit, but it has taken three years for me to get back there, because it seems so strange to go there and NOT be able to visit Krystle. Tina was kind enough to go out of her way and take the time to lead me to the cemetery, which is some distance out of Welland, and show me Krystle's grave. I don't think I would ever have been able to find it by myself. Thank you, Tina, I know that was difficult for you.

Tina's son Owen is quite a handsome little boy, and he seems quite well-behaved for his age - more credit to Tina as a mom! It was particularly poignant to watch him playing around the grave. Although Krystle never had the chance to meet him, I remember how fond she was of her nephew, and how she kept toys for him at her apartment and talked about him often. I'm sure she would have adored Owen too.

The gravestone has been beautifully maintained and decorated, with flowers and gifts. Jess took some photos which are now up at Facebook. (In some of them I look like the snaggle-toothed, white-haired bag lady on the corner, but that's OK - Tina and Owen look just fine!) Amy C., you'll want to take a close look at some of the little figurines decorating Krystle's stone; I think they will "feel" very familiar to you.

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